November 21, 2011
Today I feel so low because you are not here with me. I
miss you with every moment passing by wherever I may be. My mind sets nowhere and just thinks
about you. I want to talk a lot but our talks are due. My lips are
trembling and calling your name. I cannot see you in front of me and I am going
through this pain.
My tears are in trauma should they flow out or lay inside. They want to roll down my cheeks but don't as they have no one to value them and wipe them off. My hand holds one another as it cannot hold yours. It wanders for only your warm touch, I am sure.
My heart beats faster at the mere thought of your being here giving me a sense of joy and relief. How much I love you, how much I miss you is all I know but cannot show. I miss you with every beat of my heart. I have no way of showing my feelings. I can’t completely let go of you or let go of “US”. All I can say is, “I Love You” more than I can say. I know you don’t want to hear it but it makes no sense to pretend that I don’t.
All will be fine with time but never with you. It’s not that, I want you to be with me every time. But its just I don’t want anyone else to have you for a second. May be I will cry less with each day gone but the pain will always be there. It has gripped a corner of my heart forever. The love we shared and gave to each other will forever remain there and will only go to my heavens with me.
There was a time when you demanded all my attention, all my love and care and today, today when I have all of it only for you in this world you don’t want it. It is making me feel deserted. It is making me feel left and abandoned. And it pains like a hundred thousand needles pricking together. It is as if day by day my life is leaving me. Where did I go wrong? Where did I lack? What wrong did I do to deserve this?
My tears are in trauma should they flow out or lay inside. They want to roll down my cheeks but don't as they have no one to value them and wipe them off. My hand holds one another as it cannot hold yours. It wanders for only your warm touch, I am sure.
My heart beats faster at the mere thought of your being here giving me a sense of joy and relief. How much I love you, how much I miss you is all I know but cannot show. I miss you with every beat of my heart. I have no way of showing my feelings. I can’t completely let go of you or let go of “US”. All I can say is, “I Love You” more than I can say. I know you don’t want to hear it but it makes no sense to pretend that I don’t.
All will be fine with time but never with you. It’s not that, I want you to be with me every time. But its just I don’t want anyone else to have you for a second. May be I will cry less with each day gone but the pain will always be there. It has gripped a corner of my heart forever. The love we shared and gave to each other will forever remain there and will only go to my heavens with me.
There was a time when you demanded all my attention, all my love and care and today, today when I have all of it only for you in this world you don’t want it. It is making me feel deserted. It is making me feel left and abandoned. And it pains like a hundred thousand needles pricking together. It is as if day by day my life is leaving me. Where did I go wrong? Where did I lack? What wrong did I do to deserve this?
I have loved you with all my “Being”. I keep on tracing back
the path of time and reliving my days with you, only with a wish to have them back.
There is nothing that can ever lessen the pain of you leaving me. It might get
faded but would always be there. On this special day I am reminded of the yester
years- making promises for tomorrow, living the promises made earlier, lost in
each other.
There is nothing more comforting and yet so painful than to remember the sweet moments lived by. I am still in a dilemma whether I ever will be able to figure out my life without you or not. “Come Back” is all my soul screams out. “Just This Once” is all I have to pray to my lord.
There is nothing more comforting and yet so painful than to remember the sweet moments lived by. I am still in a dilemma whether I ever will be able to figure out my life without you or not. “Come Back” is all my soul screams out. “Just This Once” is all I have to pray to my lord.
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